Stifled...

Thursday, December 02, 2004

The Multiple Me...

Since young, I've always faced different people differently. Sometimes, I think that I'm rather hypocritical. So throughout these years, I've been asking, "Which is the REAL me?"

Until recent years, I've finally found the answer.

These ARE me.

When I'm with Jen, I tend to act a little childish. Why? I don't know. Maybe because she's older than me? Also, I'll boast and brag. It is really not because I'm arrogant. It's because I'm really a person with low self-esteem. I say things to make myself feel better. And who else can be better to brag to than your girlfriend?

With strangers or new friends, I'll be very very quiet. I'll try to make myself non-existent. Probably because of the low self-esteem. I'd seem cool and matured. That's not an act. That's one of the 'me' too.

With close friends, I'll talk loads of crap and create stupid jokes. I'd say senseless stuff with them. I may brag a little about things too. And one more thing. I speak real loudly when I'm with close friends. Don't ask me why. I don't know.

At home, I'm the most different. I'm very quiet at home. I don't talk. I don't laugh. I don't show emotions. I don't even talk to my parents. If possible, I can keep my mouth shut from the moment I get outta bed in the morning till the moment I get to bed at night. That's me. I may be typing 'Haha...' over MSN, but you'll never catch me really laughing. That's why I seldom turn on my webcam. It's kinda senseless to do so.

So these are me. I don't know why did I type this entry and I don't know what's the purpose of it. I just thought about doing this just now when I was showering in the bathroom.

Hell. What am I doing?

Never mind.

End...

Hanged @ 4:57 PM