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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Sick VS Porn...?

Damn it. I'm sick. No. Not in the head. Erm... Yes, it's the head, but not in the head. I'm having a fever and headache. Yup. Since yesterday, I've been feeling cold, then perspiring, then feeling cold again. My body temperature has been flip-flopping more than the footwear that goes by the same name. Hell...

Anyway, Jen came over yesterday to cook me porridge while I rested. Ate some and watched TV with her until around 8pm. My fever was a little better by then. Then, we went to Jurong Point to get a pair of glasses. You know, those black, stupid-looking glasses with ultra thick frames. Yeah, I'm gonna get that. You think I like that? To hell with you. I'm getting that only because I need it when I go to Tekong on Saturday. Damn. That thought freaks me out.

We were heading for JP because I have this birthday voucher from NTUC. It's a $150 voucher for Optical Point. Reached there only to find that it's closed. Fuck. Went to Clementi to get the glasses. Went there because Katherine, Jen's secondary school friend, was working there and she would give us a discount. Managed to get it done. I'll be able to get it by Friday. There was this night market in Clementi, so we walked around. I assumed I was better, so we bought some heaty junk food. Guess I wasn't that well yet. Felt the fever come back after eating them. Sent her home after that and got home to shower. I was told to shower with cold water, which I did and found myself fucking shivering when I got out of the bathroom. Damn, it's really cold. Finished my previous blog entry and chatted with Jen for a while. The headache's quite bothersome.

Anyway, I was gonna watch some porn when Jen called. She being on the phone and the presence of the headache kinda deterred me from watching. I told her that and she asked me why guys like to watch porn. Well, I don't know because I haven't really thought of that question. Maybe it's the thrill of seeing a gal nude? Or maybe because the pornstars always seem to have flawless bodies? I don't know why I watch them either. I'm not that horny, and most certainly not always horny, so why the fuck do I watch them? Hmm...

I believe I am compelled to watch them. Compelled by boredom. I watch them not really for the 'kick', although sometimes it is, but mostly to kill time. I mean, don't you guys ever turn on the computer and find that nothing on the web really interests you? I feel that way all the time, so I find things to look at. And, like I told Jen, "It's not everyday that you get to see a gal nude." Yup. Maybe guys just want to see new, female strangers nude just to satisfy their flirty nature. It's natural I guess, natural for guys to watch porn, just like girls like to look at handsome hunks. It's in the blood, just that guys demand more,or rather, less from what they see.

Whatever, I'm breaking out in sweat now. I guess it's good for my fever. They say you get better faster if you perspire. Well, it sure is an uncomfortable way to get well, with all the sweat making me all sticky and smelly. Damn. How am I suppose to sleep on my bed like that? Never mind, I just had 2 Panadols. Going to bed.

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Hanged @ 2:41 AM