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Reeve Chua Zong Hao
01/01/1986
Male
Singapore

Sunday, March 27, 2005

My Name...

Is there anything wrong with my name? Is 'Reeve' that strange? Why is it that people tell me they find it strange to call me that? They don't even know me in the first place. I like that name a lot. I have every intention to get it on my IC, so it's wise to get used to it.

And 1 more thing. It's REEVE, not REEF. I don't live under the sea, damn it.

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Hanged @ 2:53 PM

I Miss You...

Jen's in Bangkok now. I miss her like crazy. Hope she's fine, safe and sound there. I also hope she's enjoying herself there. Looking forward to seeing her next weekend.

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Hanged @ 2:50 PM

Army Market...

I just came back from the 'army market' at Beach Road. Went there with Albert and bought over $50 worth of items. Damn. How did I managed to chalk up over $50 worth of items? Crap. The place wasn't that crowded. I guess it's because today's Sunday.

Anyway, booking in later. Damn. I hate it. And guess what? For the next 5 weekends, I'll be booking out on Saturday nights and booking in on Sunday nights. If the schedule is tight, I may even have to book in on Sunday mornings. That effectively leaves me with less than 24 hours outside camp each week. I won't have time for Jen and myself. Fuck.

Damn. I just hope I can just serve and fuck off from there. Or maybe try to get into OCS by the 6th week. Then I won't have to travel so far and I can leave that stupid island for good.

End...

Hanged @ 2:41 PM

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Weekend...

Went to K box at JE with a few friends just now. Lay Ping, Jean, YW, HQ, WM, Max, Pak, Jeff. Sang for about 3 hours before WM and the gals left. The remaining of us went to get some food near JE. Had duck rice there. Damn, that was good. I missed the duck rice there.

After lunch, we went to Ginza Plaza to play LAN games. What better games to play than CS? Played for 2 hours. I improved a little, probably because I've been playing Half-Life 2 these few days. Went home after that.

Feeling damn tired now. I'll be sleeping soon because I slept real late last night. I slept at around 5.30AM, but that's after I had 3 mugs of cognac. Yes, not glass, mug. I had steamboat dinner with my family and an uncle and an aunt. My uncle opened a bottle of cognac that is supposedly over 20 years old. I was having beer initially, so I had a beer mug with me while they used glasses. He poured the liquor for me after I finished my beer. Had a total of 3 mugs. Came home at around 11.30PM last night and played games all the way till 5.30AM. That's why I'm so damn tired now.

Going to sleep now.

Life ain't the same without her around...

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Hanged @ 11:31 PM

Monday, March 21, 2005

There I Go...

A few more hours to what I'd like to call Hell Island. Sigh... For some unknown reason, I hate that island. No, it's neither the training nor the people. I just, from the bottom of my heart, dislike Tekong. Why? Why post me there? Why degrade me to become like those retarded sergeants in BMTC? Now I must spend 7 months (or maybe more) on that crappy island when I can use that time to do so many things.

In 7 months, I can, or may, earn a million bucks, become famous, be on the headlines, or even become a porn star. And now? I must spend 2 years of my prime dishing out punishment to soldiers of lower rank than me while I myself endure shit from officers whose ranks are way higher than me. What the fuck?

Never mind. This only further enforce the fact that life sucks. This will be my last post in the next few days. I'll write about how fucked-up the place is when I come back. And Jen, take care and enjoy yourself okay?

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Hanged @ 12:27 AM

Sunday, March 20, 2005

I Missed It...

Damn! I missed SMU's open house. Fuck. Never mind. Open houses suck anyway. Let's just presume the school's alright for me, since it's new.

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Hanged @ 10:06 AM

Friday, March 18, 2005

Where...?

Played Half-Life 2 throughout the night, all the way till 6.30AM before I slept. Very intriguing game with damn great graphics. And what's better is that the computer won't lag loading that kick-ass graphics.

Anyway, my point is that I slept at 6.30AM and woke up at around 2.30PM this afternoon. Was awakened by Jen's call, asking me if I wanna go play mahjong at her house tonight. I declined because there isn't even a decent table at her house to play mahjong (I'm not complaining) and I may be going to a friend's house to do something.

When I woke up just now, I found tons of messages on my phone and MSN, asking where I'm posted to. Yes, today is the big day. Checked it out and found out that I got posted to SISPEC. I already expect that, so not much of a big deal. Was hoping that it's OCS, but I guess it's time to wake up and smell the mud. Embrace 7 months of rolling in mud and camo-cream on my face...

Whatever... I just woke up a while ago and I'm feeling goddamn fucking hungry. Time to hunt for food. Ain't much time left before I'm back to eating dog food in camp.

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Hanged @ 2:39 PM

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Son Of The...

Bitch. I feel so fucking cheated. I went to watch Son Of The Mask with YW, HQ, Kev and Jeff just now. At first, I, or rather, we, were very skeptical about the show. We didn't think the show will be good, especially Kev and I. In the end, it was just as we expected. If there is a word to descibe the film, it's 'fucked-up'.

The show is bad, damn bad. It made a messy sequel outta Cameron Diaz's debut film. The original film, featuring Jim Carrey and Cameron Diaz, was made 11 years ago, but it's still fucking enjoyable even till this day.

Come on... Who can forget this film?

However, this sequel is like a train wreck. It made a total mess outta a good film. The leading actress wasn't even half as beautiful as Cameron Diaz, not to mention she wasn't in the scenes half the time. The leading male looks stupid and he only used the freakin mask twice throughout the film. Crap.

Jim Carrey had this thick green thing on his face when he acted as The Mask. Obviously they didn't cared about it in this sequel. They just used lousy green paint to depict the mask. And what's worse? The guy wearing the mask had orange plastic hair in this film. I don't know what the director was thinking, I don't even wanna know who he is, but he sure is a son of the...

The baby, who's the main character, was born so quickly that you'd think he was delivered by Fedex. The baby's cute, especially when he does strange, out-of-this-world stuffs, but that meant that they used computer to edit him so that he can do those stunts. And the editting sucks. Made the little bugger looked as though he was born without brains. Made us seemed like we haven't got no brains too. Crap.

And the fucking dog. He's adorable and obedient, but he looks hideous with the mask on. And stupid too. I guess it's the bad CG. It's a sad, sad film. The only character I felt was still watchable was Loki. No comments on him though. No fucking comments.

That's how I looked after watching the show. Angry from having wasted $7.50 and green from disgust.

When the film ended, the whole lot of us were laughing, at our stupidity I guess, for being stupid enough to watch this show. Like Kev said, we may have been better off watching Spongebob Squarepants The Movie. Damn. It's only March, but I can definitely tell you, by now, at least one of the top 3 worst films of the year. To all you folks out there, don't even watch the film. Don't even rent the VCD. Don't even think about it.

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Hanged @ 8:33 PM

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Irritation...

I'm feeling damn irritated now. Firstly, I'm in debt. Remember I wrote about the things I bought off eBay? It seems that I overspent and now I don't have enough to pay for the things I bought. I have eBay breathing down my neck everyday, sending e-mails to me everyday telling me to pay up. Damn.

To make things worse, the sunburn I got from Sentosa is killing me. My whole back is burnt. It hurts so much that I can't even sleep on my back. I must sleep with my stomach down. Fuck.

I'm going to Jen's house later to stay overnight. Her parents went abroad, that's why I can do that. That's what taking my mind off the irritation I'm feeling right now. Haha.

End...

Hanged @ 7:04 PM

A Playboy Game...

It's amazing how some pretty bitch's blog can get over 3000 hits a day while me, no matter how well or how much I write, cannot get over 2000 hits in almost 4 months.

Anyway, I just got my hands onto a new game titled Playboy: The Mansion. For your information, the owner of Playboy, Hugh Hefner, an 80 year-old crap, owns a mansion where pretty ladies dressed in bunny costumes serve guests that are invited to the mansion to have wild and promiscuous parties. Like any sane, sexually healthy male who knows what the hell Playboy is, I eagerly got my hands on the game.

'Not another porn game', you must be thinking, but you are wrong. Yes, this game has sexual contents in it, thus it's not sold in Singapore (no prize guessing how I got it), but it is definitely not a porn game. It's something like The Sims, but better. The game is about you playing Hefner and starting out slowly as you establish your Playboy empire. You gather pieces needed to publish the magazine. You shoot your own photoshoot, get journalists and photographers to work for you, throw parties where famous guests make their way to your mansion. Get bunnies to serve and entertain them. Ask the guests to write essays for your magazine, get them to accept interviews and have famous females featured on the cover of every magazine. Get them to sign contracts and make deals with you, and of course, you can get the females to have sex with you if you desire.

It's more of a management game. Study the market, have contents which the people wanna read and dominate the market. A very addictive game. Personally, I think this game kills The Sims, because I never liked The Sims due to its lack of objectives. I prefer playing games with objectives, goals which you must accomplish. The Sims is just a game where you have people live together, do the same shit over and over again and there's no end to it. That's why I prefer this game so fucking much more than The Sims.

For those who think that I'm making all these up as an excuse to play 'just another porn game', here's some screenshots to convince people that I'm not.

Notice the game's uncanny resemblance to The Sims...

So now are you convinced? It's really not a porn game, but it sure as hell is a very addictive game, so don't be suprised if you hear me rant about it all the time.

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Hanged @ 6:25 PM

Beach...

I went to Sentosa Siloso beach yesterday with a few of my platoon mates. It was a fun and tiring day. I reached the beach at about 10AM and we played volleyball immediately. It was rather exciting, considering the fact that I haven't played it in 2 years.

We moved to another spot later due to some other platoon mates joining in. I saw 2 people at the small basketball court playing and I decided to play with them. My platoon mates decided to play soccer, a sport which is never as interesting as basketball in my view. Anyway, I went to the basketball to play with the couple there, in fact, I ran to the court as I was feeling really excited to be able to play my favourite sport. Hmm... Ok, partly because the girl on the court was wearing an orange, eye-catching bikini.

As I reached there, I realised something. I was wrong. Not horribly wrong, but half-wrong. They were a couple alright, but the supposedly 'guy' was actually a girl. Little bugger... The 2 of them are fucking lesbians. Just my luck. But then again, it didn't really mattered. We played basketball all the same, and I must say, the basketball weren't the only things bouncing.

Got tired of the hot sun after a while and went back into the shade where a few of my mates are slacking. I also found one of them with bandages on his right big toe. Apparently his toenail came off when I kicked the freakin soccer ball barefooted. I feel bad for him, but I rejoice the fact that I didn't play with them.

Soon, the sun was just too hot. Not able to bear it no more, a bunch of us jumped into the water. Fuck. The water was offensively salty. I coughed, I choked and I almost puked when the water first entered my mouth. We played frisbee and volleyball in the water. That was fun shit. Next, we made 'sandballs' (the sand version of snowballs) and threw it at each other. Got sand all over me. I even got fucking sand in my fucking underwear. Fuck. Dragged people into the water, buried people under sand, you know, the usual shit stuff people do when they got to the beach.

When I was about to return to the shore, I realised that the beach is filled with people. Georgous babes in bikinis, playing ball games and frisbees under the sun, flaunting their assets to all the men, flashing their seawater drenched cleavages around. That's what I call heaven. Damn. All those sexy nymphs. Anyway, my friend was complaining that there are more daring girls on the other beach. Daring girls who dare to go topless as they suntan and ignorant foreign chicks who will bare it all due to their lack of knowledge on local laws on public exposure. Looks like the Force is really with Palawan (No pun intended), but we were all too tired and lazy to move there.

Packed up and left at around 3Pm to have lunch buffet at Sakae Sushi in HabourFront. Ate all the way till 6PM. Dragged my beaten shell home after that.

Hanged @ 6:00 PM

Spooky...

I was playing with my computer last night when something spooky happened. I didn't turn on any lights because I was gonna hit the bed in a while. I remember playing a new game I got hold of when the CD-ROM tray ejected itself. Damn. As we all know, the tray will only eject itself when, 1.,you press the eject button, and 2., when you go to 'My Computer' and click on 'Eject', but I did neither (Obviously, as I was gaming), so how did that happen? Did someone, or rather, something, pressed the eject button? Spooky...

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Hanged @ 5:43 PM

Friday, March 11, 2005

What The Fuck...?

I just realised that buying things over the internet can be both fun and fatal. Maybe it's because I slept at 6.30AM and woke up at 11.30AM, that's why I can't think well, or maybe it's just the ease and convenience of buying things in front of my computer that overwhelmed me, but I believed I overspent my money. Damn.

I signed up for eBay a few months back and haven't tried using it before. My initial intention is to sell stuffs and earn money, but now everything's reversed. I was looking through the items sold so that I can get ideas on what kinda stuffs people buy the most, but I ended up buying things. I've already bought an FF8 gunblade model. It's on it's fucking way flying here. And guess what the ridiculous thing is? The blade cost USD$2 but the shipping cost is USD$13. What the fuck?

This is the gunblade I bought.

I've also bidded a lot of other things. Fuck. This month's allowance will be depleted if no one outbids me. My total bidding is over a hundred bucks. Here's another item I bidded. I could have gotten it for less than $40 at Kinokuniya but I bidded it online because I overlooked the shipping costs and thought it was cheaper. Now it adds up to about $60. Well, never mind. The one I ordered is in mint condition.

This is the gothic tarot I've been dreaming of buying.

I know, I know. I may seem to be buying things on impulse right, but not everything I buy is purely based on interest. I've also bidded for things that are useful.

With this, you'll see a major revamp of my blog soon.

I can finally print coloured stuffs again.

So not everything a bought is useless. At least I made some good use of my money. Anyway, I found some real funny stuffs on eBay. There's this person who's trying to sell a supposedly haunted voodoo doll. Haha. I'm too chicken to bid for that. There's this voodoo set on eBay too, but I'm too broke to bid for it. I need to save up to spend on myself and Jen. And I subscribed to tons of magazine and membership cards, so I can't exhaust my bank balance.

I'm gonna go catch a movie with Jen now. So much for not exhausting my bank balance. Haha. Crap.

End...

Hanged @ 3:16 PM

Interesting Information...

I found this piece of information from someone else's blog.

" ... the average sex session in the UK lasts 32.5 minutes and therefore burns 179 Kcals. Men from Bristol topped the charts with an average 44 minute session and 242Kcals burnt, with Cardiff ladies taking the lead for women and clocking up an exhausting 78 mins and 429Kcals burnt per session. "

This is some interesting and helpful information, but would anyone have sex just to burn calories? And 78 minutes! Cardiff ladies sure are a horny bunch. Now we know where the horny women of the UK are, but can the men last that long? Hmm...

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Hanged @ 4:03 AM

Thursday, March 10, 2005

I'm Normal Again...

I'm normal again, which means that I'm back to my abnormal self with regards to all of you people out there. I'm normal as in a sleep at about 5AM or 6AM in the morning and wake up about 2PM or 3PM in the afternoon. That's the normal me. You can say I'm insane, but I just love to stay up throughout the night. There won't be anyone asking me anything, pestering me to do anything, and I can watch porn if I wanna. Ain't that great? At least I'm free to choose when to sleep. I can't choose when I'm in the army. Fucking hell.

Anyway, me reverting back to my usual self means I'll be having problems meeting people. I wake up in the afternoon feeling half dead. I walk like a zombie around the house until the sun sets. That is when I start to become more awake. So how the fuck am I gonna meet friends? My friends play basketball only during daytime and no one would wanna go out at night. Damn. And Jen wakes up so much earlier than me. Hmm...

I guess I'll have to alternate between my normal self and the 'not me' self. I'm meeting my section mates on Monday to go to Sentosa. I don't wanna miss out the fun (and the babes) there. Haha.

End...

Hanged @ 8:54 PM

POP...

I'm back. This time, I'll be back for a longer time because I had my POP yesterday. It was fun as everyone was in a very good mood. Everyone was wishing everybody else all the best and crap like that. We are no longer recruits. We are now privates. It only means that I will have to withstand less of the retardedness of sergeants and receive more shit from warrant officers.

Anyway, according to a sergeant, who is also a friend of mine, I'm most probably going to SISPEC. Damn. Motherfucking crap. I don't wanna return to that damn island no more. I don't wanna go outfield and roll in fucking mud every fucking day. Sigh... I can only hope that that friend of mine is wrong.

When asked what I learnt from BMT, I really don't remember much. We just go there and endure crap everyday, trying to have as much fun in the course of it as possible. The most memorable thing? I don't remember. Everything is new, the people, the surroundings. If I have to say, I'd say the whole 9 weeks was kinda memorable.

How was my fitness? Well, I got a silver for IPPT, completed the SOC in 9 minutes and 44 seconds and I can strip an M16, blindfolded, within 17 seconds. Haha. What has stripping the rifle gotta do with my fitness? Never mind. Now it's time to relax before I get my posting.

End...

Hanged @ 8:43 PM

Saturday, March 05, 2005

In The Middle Of The Night...

It's damn quiet now because my whole family's asleep. I like this feeling. It's been a million years since I last felt the tranquility of the night. Sitting in front of the computer and doing things I like. Feels damn good.

What the fuck are you doing now anyway?

I'm putting on my facial mask and waiting for it to solidify. It's black in colour, so I look kinda stupid with it on.

This is how I look now.

I'm gonna play some games and maybe surf some porn later after I take off the mask.

Anyway, I got my results today. I got a B for my Economics, a C for my Mathematics and a D for my Physics. It's not good, but I probably can enter a local university with that results. I fully deserve this kind of result because I really didn't study for the examinations. I only started studying the subject the night before the paper, so I kinda guessed I'd have crap results.

My result slip.

I'm neither sad nor happy about it. It's just a sad piece of paper which I used 2 years to obtain. The only thing I'm kinda unhappy about is a certain female in my class scoring a grade better than me for every subject. She used to be so much dumber than me. Damn.

So I guess hard work pays off huh?

Shut up. She just has to be there to show me that I'm a lazy bum. Crap.

Now what? Feeling bad already?

Nope. Like I said, this is the result I deserve for not studying. And also, there are so many people that did so much worse than me. Some failed to get results that can get them to a local university. Some can't even get passes for 2 subjects. I hear people getting CEE or DOO, so I guess BCD ain't that bad. Furthermore, most of my friends are getting grades quite similar to mine, so I ain't feeling that bad.

You sick bastard! You are actually feeling good because your peers did badly?

Hey, I'm not the one that made them do badly. It isn't my fault they can't enter a local university.

Fine! So what are you gonna do now?

I'm gonna serve my NS and fuck off. Then go to a local university and get a fucking degree. I don't care what degree because people usually end up with jobs irrelevant to what they've studied.

So you mean you don't know what you wanna study in university?

I'll try to enter mass communication because I believe that it will help if I really wanna become a DJ. Although my A1 in Chinese should be able to land me a job at 93.3FM, a mass communication degree should give me a higher chance. But then again, the mass communication class is a very difficult class to get into. Many people wanna study that. My GP is only a B3. People with A1 and A2 should stand a higher chance than me. Fuck. Never mind, if I can't get into mass communication, then I'll just study anything.

Ok. Enough. I'm gonna go take the mask off and get on with my night. I'll be sleeping quite late, but I'll be playing basketball with some friends tomorrow morning. Wonder if I can get up on time tomorrow...

End...

Hanged @ 12:50 AM

fatal.touch said...: wah..like tokking abt mi liddat..tsk sad liao lor..; 1:00 AM

Friday, March 04, 2005

Problems...

Well... It's kinda fast, I must say. 9 weeks of BMT coming to an end just like that. I'm gonna fucking POP soon. 5 more days. I don't know whether to be happy or worried about it. I guess I should be happy to leave Tekong, but I'll be posted to other units other that. I'll have to leave the guys I lived with for the past few weeks. I am kinda sad. And also, other units will definitely be tougher than BMT. The worst scenerio will be me being posted to SISPEC. School of Infantry Specialists, or Suffer In Silence, Please Endure and Carry on. It's also on Tekong. I don't wanna go back to that island no more.

On Tekong, I'm physically and mentally cut off from the world. I don't know what's going on out here. I get newspapers only on certain days and I never have the time to read them. I don't know what the fuck's happening in the world, I don't know what latest technology there is and I don't know what new songs are available. I'm so mentally drained that I'll read anything if I have the time.

Another problem is my friendship with my classmates and friends. Every book-out I spend all the time with Jen (I'm not complaining yet) that I haven't seen any of my friends since I got enlisted. I simply lost touch with them and my life's empty. My life now is only Jen and Tekong. Almost every Sunday morning my friends will be playing soccer near RZ's house. And what will I be doing then? Sleeping! Where have my life gone?

And as if all those are not enough, Jen is starting to get on my nerves too. She has 5 days a week to do the things she wanna do, play the games she wanna play. Me? I don't have any free time for myself. Even after training, I'll call her during my free time to chat with her. Every book-out I'll spend all my time with her. But does anyone know how fucked-up one gets when he doesn't have ANY free time for himself? I train like a fucking dog on Tekong for 5 fucking days. I sleep less than 6 hours a day, and when I wanna get some sleep at home, Jen will wake me up early in the morning. For what? NOTHING!!! She just wants me to wake up so that she'll not feel bored waking up alone. Sometimes I feel that I sleep more in Tekong than at home.

And when she plays with the computer, I'll just find things to do, but when I play with the computer, she'll fucking say I ain't spending time with her. WTF? Until last week, I haven't played any games on my computer. I don't even have to time type a decent entry. Why do you think the last entry was so short?

If I book-out and she's not there to fetch me, she expects me to go home, shower, and go look for her immediately. I can't rest at home, I can't play games at home. If I tell her I need to rest, she'll get angry and say I don't care about her and I don't wanna see her. I'm at the point of breaking down dealing with her. Wondering why I can type such a long entry? Because I just quarrelled with her and she left my house. Must this be the way I get free time for myself? Damn it...

As if all these are not enough, my 'A' level results are gonna be released in a few minutes' time. I think I'm gonna do so fucking badly that I'm just gonna fucking repeat my 'A' levels. I don't mind repeating, I just don't wanna get results that are too good to let me repeat but too bad for me to go to a local university. Not here yet not there. Damn. I'll have to go and see what's in store for me.

End...

Hanged @ 1:50 PM

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