Stifled...

Saturday, March 05, 2005

In The Middle Of The Night...

It's damn quiet now because my whole family's asleep. I like this feeling. It's been a million years since I last felt the tranquility of the night. Sitting in front of the computer and doing things I like. Feels damn good.

What the fuck are you doing now anyway?

I'm putting on my facial mask and waiting for it to solidify. It's black in colour, so I look kinda stupid with it on.

This is how I look now.

I'm gonna play some games and maybe surf some porn later after I take off the mask.

Anyway, I got my results today. I got a B for my Economics, a C for my Mathematics and a D for my Physics. It's not good, but I probably can enter a local university with that results. I fully deserve this kind of result because I really didn't study for the examinations. I only started studying the subject the night before the paper, so I kinda guessed I'd have crap results.

My result slip.

I'm neither sad nor happy about it. It's just a sad piece of paper which I used 2 years to obtain. The only thing I'm kinda unhappy about is a certain female in my class scoring a grade better than me for every subject. She used to be so much dumber than me. Damn.

So I guess hard work pays off huh?

Shut up. She just has to be there to show me that I'm a lazy bum. Crap.

Now what? Feeling bad already?

Nope. Like I said, this is the result I deserve for not studying. And also, there are so many people that did so much worse than me. Some failed to get results that can get them to a local university. Some can't even get passes for 2 subjects. I hear people getting CEE or DOO, so I guess BCD ain't that bad. Furthermore, most of my friends are getting grades quite similar to mine, so I ain't feeling that bad.

You sick bastard! You are actually feeling good because your peers did badly?

Hey, I'm not the one that made them do badly. It isn't my fault they can't enter a local university.

Fine! So what are you gonna do now?

I'm gonna serve my NS and fuck off. Then go to a local university and get a fucking degree. I don't care what degree because people usually end up with jobs irrelevant to what they've studied.

So you mean you don't know what you wanna study in university?

I'll try to enter mass communication because I believe that it will help if I really wanna become a DJ. Although my A1 in Chinese should be able to land me a job at 93.3FM, a mass communication degree should give me a higher chance. But then again, the mass communication class is a very difficult class to get into. Many people wanna study that. My GP is only a B3. People with A1 and A2 should stand a higher chance than me. Fuck. Never mind, if I can't get into mass communication, then I'll just study anything.

Ok. Enough. I'm gonna go take the mask off and get on with my night. I'll be sleeping quite late, but I'll be playing basketball with some friends tomorrow morning. Wonder if I can get up on time tomorrow...

End...

Hanged @ 12:50 AM

fatal.touch said...: wah..like tokking abt mi liddat..tsk sad liao lor..; 1:00 AM