Sunday, September 25, 2005
You Thought I Was...
I recently found out that some people in my platoon has very interesting misconceptions of me. I tend to speak a lot of hokkien in camp because I think that's how the army is, although OCS is filled with all sorts of smarties. I speak hokkien so much that people call me "hokkien soldier" because that's what our PCs always tell us. They always say that the troops in units are mostly lowly educated guys who speak more hokkien than anything else. If I'm gonna become a PC in a unit, I think I'll make quite a good one because at least communication isn't a barrier. Haha.
Anyway, because I speak hokkien and act like a bad-ass in camp, people form strange ideas of me. 1 particular guy asked me how old I was one day, and I said 19, the same age as him. He looked at me and asked, "How can that be? I thought polytechnic students in our batch of officer cadets should be older than us?"
What the fuck? He thought that I was from polytechnic. So you mean polytechnic students speak hokkien and act like a jackass? A JC guy can't speak hokkien? What the hell... Anyway, I told him I was from a JC and he looked fucking stunned.
Next, there was this JC visit where ACJC and IJC sent students over to OCS for a tour. I was in charge of introducing one of the weapons we have to those kids. 1 platoon mate was sitting near me when I started introducing the weapon to the kids, captivating them with my speech. After that, the students came over to me and had a feel of my weapon. I mean my weapon as in the weapon I was in charge of, not MY weapon. Damn...
Anyway, after they left, my platoon mate came up to me and told me this, "I've never heard you speak perfect English, I've never known that you are capable of that." What the fuck are you talking about? Just because I speak hokkien and mandarin more doesn't mean I can't speak English. What made you think that way? Is it my fluent hokkien? I've got a B3 for my GP and I was a class debater in secondary school, for fuck's sake.
So you see, people have strange ideas of what kinda person I am. Well, I guess I need to cut down on my hokkien or the next thing they can come up with is that I'm a triad member. Damn...
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1:25 PM
Caught Another Movie...
Caught One More Chance with Jen yesterday night. I entered the theatre thinking that it was just another local hokkien comedy, but boy, I was so wrong.
The movie's about 3 guys who went to jail for different reasons. They became buddies in jail and came out, wanting to change themselves. 2 did, while one didn't. It's a really meaningful film, showing the economic and social impact on a family when 1 member's been jailed before. The consequences portrayed seemed so real, especially to me as my father's been jailed before.
It's a very touching film as Jen was crying throughout the movie. I felt touched too, but I'm not gonna cry in the theatre. Haha.
Mark Lee said something in the film that made a really great impact. He said, "The judge sentenced me to 10 years of jail, but you people sentenced me for life!" He said that because no one wanted to hire him even though he was a changed man already. You'll detest the employers who refuse to hire him, but unknowingly, we all fall into the same trap of prejudice.
It's a good film, seeing Jack Neo outdoing himself again. This film makes me look forward to I No Stupid, Too. His films may not be those international blockbusters, but it's down to earth and close to our hearts.
One thing about this film is that it's mostly in hokkien, so if you don't understand that then you'll have problems understanding the jokes. I speak hokkien and people in camp call me the "hokkien soldier", so I have no problem understanding everyhthing. However, there's still subtitles for people who don't understand the coarse language, but the essence of the jokes will not be there no more.
In conclusion, go catch the film.
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1:13 PM
Saturday, September 24, 2005
She's Invading Every Other Magazine...
Known as the most popular blogger in town, this particular senior of mine (whose name I shall not mention) seem to have gained the support of many people, including a bulk of my friends' and the media's attention. She's everywhere. I'm not jealous of anything, but it's getting on my nerves. I see her write columns in the Sunday New Paper every week. I read her articles in the local Maxim. There's this new magazine called SNAG, and while flipping through it in Borders yesterday, I saw her rather long article in the magazine. What the fuck?
Don't get me wrong, people. I don't detest her, I just don't really like her. She's being featured on magazines and newpapers, I believe I can tolerate that, but guess what I saw today? I bought the latest issue of Maxim and saw her inside, sporting a bikini. My goodness! You know what? I don't think she's beautiful, not even remotely pretty. In fact, I find her fugly and now she's in a men's magazine wearing a bikini. That is so NOT hot. Now I get too frightened to even flip open the magazine. I saw some other female bloggers featured, and they are all rather pretty looking. Why be the sore thumb?
Anyway, I found the courage to flip the magazine open again and saw this quote saying that she'll disclose her sex life on her blog if she was to remain anonymous. What?! You mean she has a sex life? No wonder people say Singaporean men are blind. There are really people who wanna shag Ms. Fat & Fugly? Then I suppose there are people who buys the magazine and wank to her. Damn... That imagination alone irks me. Fuck...
For goodness sake, stay behind the computer and just write columns. Don't try to pull stunts like wearing a bikini and get featured on a men's magazine because you don't really have the assets to do so. What the fuck's the editor of Maxim doing anyway?
End...
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1:32 PM
Sushi...
Went to Wheelock Place to have sushi with a few OCS friends. Was supposed to meet there at 12.30PM. My alarm rang at 10AM, but I fell asleep again, until around 10.45AM when Jen called. I woke up and realised that I'd be late, so I rushed down to Wheelock Place, only to discover that they will all be fucking later than me. Haha. I reached there at around 12.45PM, they were all still at home then. They arrived at 2.15PM. Fortunately, I had my PSP with me and I was watching The 40-Year Old Virgin. Funny shit, you guys should go catch it too when it's out.
Anyway, my buddy, Sean, Eugene and Chin Cheong all arrived at around the same time. We were all starving by then but we discovered that the sushi buffet starts only at 3PM (Why didn't anyone of us realise that?), so we went to Borders to look at a book on world records. Found out some really amazing facts there.
3PM, went to have sushi buffet at Sakae Sushi. Eugene got another friend in after a while. The whole lot of us ate and chatted, but our topics were mostly on OCS life, thus Eugene's friend was rather left outta the conversation. That was the first time I went out with friends in a fucking long time. Felt great to be chatting and laughing with friends.
After food, we went to meet Nigel, who came to town to meet another friend. So now the whole lot of us consists of me, Nigel, Sean, Cheong, Eugene, Eugene's friends and Nigel's friend, who's names I still haven't get. Saw Terrence on the way and we were all really suprised, because he's supposed to be in camp serving confinement. He left for his business while we walked around Takashimaya. We wanted to catch a movie, but we can't seem to agree on which movie to watch. Went to Heeren's as Nigel wanted to buy some clothes. Walked around Heeren's, and Cheong, not the type to shop, was bitching all the way. He left at around 7PM to go to the gym. What the fuck?
Terrence and Nick came to meet us at around 7.30PM. I was wearing a pink top, and Terrence said I looked gay, but Nick said I look good. Hmm...
Anyway, we shopped around Heeren's again, then went to Takashimaya, again. After that, I left to meet Jen to catch a movie. Watched The Myth. The film's not bad, the Korean girl and the Indian girl were both very beautiful. The ending was rather abrupt, but the fighting sequence was not bad, quite humorous too.
After the movie, she took NR3 home while I took NR5 home. She got angry because I refused to go to her house and stay over there.
Got home, played a little computer game and slept at 5AM.
End...
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1:09 PM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Pride...? Honour...? Ego...? Glory...? What...?
I was running a 10km endurance run on Friday when I discovered myself running damn slowly after the 5km mark. That's strange, because I'm not the least tired. I wasn't even panting, so why slow down? Well, I found out that I just want to slack. Then I told myself that, "Hey, you know you can finish this run like a breeze because you did it before, so why run fast?"
Then I remember that as an officer-to-be, I must always do my best in everything I do, but I wasn't even running at 50% of my usual speed. What's going on? I started to think about my life. It seems to me that I've never tried my best in anything I do. Not my studies, not my physical training, not in almost anything. Everytime people ask me questions like, "What's your best 2.4km run timing?", I don't seem to be able to answer because I've got my fastest timing, but that's definitely not my best timing. I don't know my best timing because I've never tried my best.
Next, I began to wonder why things are in this manner. I asked others why they put in their best. Some told me for pride and glory. Others want the honour of being first in everything they do. Pride? Glory? Honour? Is that all? Does that mean I don't possess those values? Maybe. Pride and glory don't mean much to me. They are just noble satisfaction, self-appeasing emotions, intangible rewards that people find valuable to possess. To me, they are just emotions that are rather useless. Can you survive on pride and honour? Can these emotions fill your stomach?
I'm not sure if I'm starting to seem like a jerk thinking this way, but I guess poverty really turned me into a rather cold and hard bastard. As long as it doesn't reap material reward, it ain't worth my time or me doing my best. I'm ready to do many things for money, less those things I find unacceptable. I even offered to serve weekend duty for a friend in exchange for money. No pride? Desperate? I don't know. Think what you like.
By the time I snapped outta my thoughts, I've already jogged for 3km. I don't mind doing a slow jog for the rest of the 2km, but subconsciously, I sped up. When I realise it, the run had ended. I wasn't the last few as I thought I would be. What made me speed up? My only logical explanation is my ego. My ego won't let me be the last few to return. I have a huge ego and it has every intention to burst outta me and tell everyone else how fast I can run. It also wants to tell my slack self that I can go beyond where I've been before. It's like 2 souls with conflicting values living in a body. It's me that wants to slack and it's me that wants to do better. It's an interesting war and here I am, watching it unfold in me, waiting for a winner. Does that make the 'me' sitting in front of the computer and typing away a third 'me'? Will I become a a person who tries his best to do everything well? Or will I become a slack bastard who will only do things for rewards like money? Only time will tell...
End...
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5:47 PM
AHM...
I went for the Army Half Marathon today. Booked in last night to have 7 hours of sleep in camp. That's fucking stupid, because we were the only wing to book in for that. I'll be booking in tonight, and we will be the only wing to book in tonight I guess. Everyone else is booking in tomorrow.
Anyway, we went to the Padang to start the 12km race. I met a few friends from RV and BSLC. Chatted with a few as I ran. Finished the race at around 9.45AM and left from there. Went to Funan IT Mall to have Ya Kun Kaya Toast with Cyrus and Bing Rui. Walked around the mall in really wet clothes because I didn't bring clothes to change. They left at around 12PM to catch a movie while I shopped a while. I bought a set of basketball jersey to change into. Took the train home.
I'm not sure if I injured my knee just now or last week, but I think I have a loose knee. My right knee hurts every time I walk or stand. It makes a 'Tiak' sound whenever I bend my right knee. Damn. I guess I'll have to report sick tomorrow.
I'll be booking in at around 10.30PM, but I'm not totally free till then. I have this presentation to prepare because as officers, we will be required to present information to our soldiers and superiors, thus we have to be equipped with good presentation skills. WTF...
End...
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5:39 PM
Sunday, September 04, 2005
Erm...
The chances of her seeing this are close to zero, but I'll just say it here. Happy birthday, Mum.
End...
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3:59 PM
Just Felt Like Blogging...
It's raining now. A cool and boring afternoon, made perfectly for sleeping. I have nothing to do now. Just finished typing my instructors' appraisals and my reflection for the Brunei trip. had to do it now because I just got back from camp this morning. Had regimental weekend duty. Spent the whole of yesterday in a boring room chatting with Aaron, playing PSP and reading magazines.
I actually have nothing much to write, but I just felt like blogging. Went on IRC to download songs just now, but found out that the song channels are all closed. Looked for someone to chat and made a new friend. I am teaching Bing Rui how to install MS Office now. Will go and take a nap later. Or maybe I'll just go take a walk in the mall nearby.
Jen's not around. I'm booking in later at around 9.30PM. I want to play some computer games but absolutely no games interest me now. I'm waiting for the 10th to come, so that I can buy a new game for my PSP. Bleach: Heat of the Soul 2. Like I said before, I'm an absolute fan of Bleach. Will go all out to get it.
If you are reading this and finding that there is zero coherence, then you are right. My thoughts are all over the place. I don't have a theme for this entry. Like I said, I just felt like blogging.
End...
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3:49 PM
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