Stifled...

Monday, January 30, 2006

Lost...

With no reference to the blockbuster TV series, I feel that my life is at a loss. I cannot see what the future holds for me.

I don't know what I wanna do in the future. 20 years and I still haven't decided. I wanted to be a radio DJ in 93.3FM, but I have no confidence in making it due to the fact that I'm a fucking quiet person when I'm not with my friends.

Also, I still don't know what I wanna take in university. I've got a place in NTU to study Chinese, but it's not a must to have a degree in Chinese to be a DJ and I'm not interested to be a teacher if I don't get the job at the station. I don't know what to take and what to do. My future is an unknown to me.

My friend told me to decide between what I like and what I wanna do. I don't know. I really don't know. I've always envisioned myself being quite well-off, living in at least a condominium and having a car and all that nonsense, but I've got a feeling I might end up doing some odd jobs, living in a 2-room flat and quarrelling with my wife all the time. Damn...

Till now, the only thing I have confidence in is being a soldier. I'm an officer, if I sign on I definitely won't go hungry. But I don't wanna sign my life away. I wanna go out and see the world. How? How?

End...

Hanged @ 2:52 PM