Stifled...

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Trouble At Work...

I'm damn frustrated with the situation of my workplace now. I was happily in a wing called the Basic Combat Wing (BCW) in my camp months ago, until I was posted, with several other NSFs, to Platoon Combat Wing (PCW) Team 2 about 2 months ago. I resigned to my fate and went there, got some very fucked-up people as my superiors, namely Mike, Irvin and James. Mike and James are two bastards with really bad attitude and they think very highly of themselves. They insists they are right all the time, and when they are in the wrong, they will twist facts until YOU are in the wrong and they are right. As for Irvin? He's just a lazy fucker who makes an excellent example of a fucked-up officer. He turns up late for duties and work and, being only 1 fucking rank above me, thinks he can control me. The only people maintaining my sanity in fucking Team 2 is Suffian and Erick.

Shift to present time. I got news yesterday that Suffian, me and everyone who used to be in BCW are going back to BCW. I was very happy as my OC, Ardlee, is a very good man and treats everyone well. He believes in my capabilities and made me the Wing 2IC the day he got news that I was back, which was yesterday. Immediately I got to work, tying up loose ends and getting things moving. I love being in BCW, working under Ardlee.

In Team 2, I was just an extra pair of hands. I was willing to learn the things I was supposed to do, but Mike and Irvin refused to teach me. As an officer, I was acting like a fucking private soldier. I just sit around, wait for intructions, do as instructed, then go back waiting. My job there can be done by a specialist or even an enlistee. I can't do much either as I do not have as much experience as them and I am not taught anything. There's no value to my job there and needless to say, there was no job satisfaction.

In BCW, I can help Ardlee run the wing, check on the guys, conduct lessons or even important events like range, write a bit of lesson plans. My job satisfaction is so much higher and there's much more value in my job. I'm doing an officer's job that I should rightfully be doing and not just be around to act as an extra pair of hands or run errands.

You can imagine how elated I was when I heard that I'm going back to my 'home', BCW. But guess what? I heard today that I'm going to stay in Team 2. Why? Why make me into a useless robot again? I'm so sick of doing senseless chores and bearing with the stupid attitude of people there. And what's worse? I'm the only NSF in the whole fucking camp not going back to BCW. Suffian is going back, so is everyone else. That leaves 1 less person to maintain my sanity in Team 2. Why is this happening to me?

I'm very sick and tired of Team 2. I'm kinda depressed now. I'm going to talk to my camp commander tomorrow regarding this and hope he can do something about it.

End...

Hanged @ 7:45 PM