Stifled...

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

69 To 21...

Haven't blogged for over a week. I see productive people churning out 4 to 6 entries a week while I'm thinking what to write. I don't really feel the motivation to blog, because no one leaves a shit in my blog, giving me the impression that no one reads my blog. But I'm still a blogger nonetheless and I've got pride as a blogger. I'll blog even if no one reads my shit.

Anyway, I was reading someone else's blog when I came across an entry about her turning 20. 20? People are turning 20 while 21's looking at me straight in the face? 20 was way back for me. I still remember hating myself for turning 20 and now 21 is only 69 (I like the number, though) days away. I'll be an adult soon. A fucking adult. No more excuses. Where did my childhood and teenage years go? What happened to a 'happening' life? What happened to fucking around?

Screw the fact that I can catch R21 shows in 69 days. I've been watching hardcore porn since I was a kid so that doesn't matter. What matters is I'm going to become an adult and I'm still a poor fuck. I'm trying to be successful and rich but it takes time for results to show. I know all that, yet I feel so damn old. I have 10 years to become at least financially free. I'll be too old, for my standards, by 30.

I'm not going to rant about those people my age or younger being more successful than I am as I had already talked about it 2 years ago. I'm no Rooney or Ronaldo. But I'm fucking unhappy when I see people like the owner of Youtube earning billions at 26. Argh!

I'm gonna leave the army in 14 days, meaning I'll not be receiving any pay in 14 days' time, meaning I'll be broke in no time. I need to work. I have bills to pay off. I only have probably less than $2000 of saving and I still need to buy a new computer or laptop to do my work. My $15k fixed deposit won't mature until 2 years later. Fuck!

Fortunately for me though, there aren't many people my age competing for wealth and success with me. Why? Because they are all busy playing stupid online games like WOW and Maple Story, or busy clubbing and spending their money that they could have used to invest in something more meaningful. It saddens me but it brings me so much relief at the same time. Screw them idiots, especially those online gamers. They make it like a cult, playing through the night and going to work all tired and shit. All for some stupid 'raid' they feel compelled to do. What for? They are my age, some older, yet they feel no urgency to start planning for their future. Now is the age to give everything for a shot at success and wealth, not to stay awake all night to play games. Sigh...

I shouldn't get so worked up, really. It doesn't matter what others do. I just want my stuff to work out and help Erick execute our plans. Then I'll see the fruits of my labour.

End...

Hanged @ 12:11 AM

Anonymous said...: yo bro .. nothing comes easy...
1)get out of your comfort zone
2)focus
3)work on it

answer!!!! succeed or feedback thats all!!!!
succeed -- start something new
feedback--- change strategy

erick; 2:32 AM