Stifled...

Monday, December 25, 2006

My Christmas...

I spent Christmas Eve & Christmas sleeping at home. In fact, I just woke up. It's kinda sad I have to spend a holiday sleeping at home alone, but it's my choice though. I could have gone out, but what is there to do outside?

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Hanged @ 11:50 PM

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Merry Christmas...

I haven't blogged for a whole month. Too busy with work I guess. Anyway, it's Christmas today. Christmas makes no sense to me. I don't celebrate it, partly because I see no point in that and partly due to my detest for crowded places.

Another reason why I don't really like Christmas is because it is exactly a week before my birthday. I'm not going to start on the usual birthday rant and complains about becoming old and not being successful. I'm working my way outta this situation.

Speaking of birthday, my mother asked me what I want for my birthday. I told her nothing. I'm not exactly talking to her, and the things I want are things she will never be able to provide me with. Furthermore, I don't want to ask for things from her anymore. I want to earn the things I want myself. My philosophy is that I will not wanna ask anything from them anymore but I won't reject if they give anything to me on their own free will.

She had plans on asking people over to celebrate as she believes 21 represents freedom. I, however, don't believe in that because I have had almost all the freedom I can get over the years and I don't see how it can increase. And, as stated above, I don't like crowded places. I rejected the idea.

She asked for some computer specifications yesterday, probably knowing that I'm saving for a computer/laptop. I didn't give it to her. I didn't even looked at her when she asked for it from me. Is it because I can't be bothered with her? Is it because I don't want her to bother me? Or is it because I don't wanna bother her? What was she thinking? Save the money for your own medication!

On this Christmas, I realised that I'm not without love, it's just that I reject the love shown to me.

Merry Christmas, everyone...

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Hanged @ 12:08 AM