Thursday, April 26, 2007
It's Over...
It's over...
I stabbed myself as I stabbed her...
There's no turning back...
It hurts, but life is like that...
Love cannot overcome everything...
I learnt that years ago, didn't I...?
The fire burnt strongly...
Until the harsh realities of life came pouring...
Alone in the wind...
Life will never be the same again...
I'll face the fears and the tears...
Hear the jeers in my ears...
I don't deserve you...
You don't deserve me...
You deserve better...
Best wishes to you my dear...
End...
Hanged @
1:16 AM
Quote From Hana-Kimi...
I was watching Hana-Kimi yesterday when this quote struck me. The quote is as such:
True love is like a ghost. Everyone's talking about it but only few have seen it. But just because you haven't seen it doesn't mean it doesn't exist.
Don't you find this quote deep and beautiful? Go ponder over it.
End...
Hanged @
1:13 AM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
My Past Was Deleted...
I just realised that my old diary was deleted by the site it was hosted. The good, the bad, the happy, the sad, all deleted like it didn't matter, like it didn't happen. The tears and blood shed into it, erased with a click of the mouse. I regret not downloading the whole diary and storing it into my computer. Memories are meant to be kept. The memories will live on in me.
End...
Hanged @
7:10 AM
Friday, April 20, 2007
It's Official... I Lost Weight...
I've only been guessing that I lost weight while on my diet but I finally confirmed it yesterday.
I went to NUS for my pre-admission body check up and I found out that I lost about 4KG when I took my weight. 4KG in a month while still eating chicken chops, chicken nuggets, shrimp dumplings and shit like that everyday. And I didn't even exercise much because of my arm and a recently developed foot injury. I guess this diet really works.
End...
Hanged @
3:13 PM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Scars...
I just got back from work. Suddenly felt like taking pictures of my scars because they apparently scared someone on the train on my way back.
I was on the train just now when a guy sat beside me. I was 'cracking' my knuckles as usual when he saw my scars. I have 3 ugly scars on my right arm and he appeared rather frightened by them, like I was a hooligan or something. After a stop beside me, he could not take it anymore and stood up. The train was rather empty but he did not take a seat. He walked to the door opposite me and stood there for a long time. He finally sat down after the train stopped at Jurong East and most people alighted. He eventually alighted at Lakeside. He was going to alight at Lakeside while I alighted at Boon Lay. We are only a stop apart but he chose to stand away from me for the bulk of the journey when he initially had a seat beside me. My guess is that he's afraid of me, unless someone can give me another point of view regarding his action.
Anyway, here are the pictures of my scars.
This is the faintest of the scars...
This scar is where the bone protruded out of my skin...
This is the one most visible when I walk because it's damn red...
If you run your finger along the first and the third scars you can actually feel the metal grafted onto my bones. You can request to try the next time you see me. Haha.
Hi, people...
I'm throwing in another picture of myself because I haven't been going out to any gatherings after my injuries and people have not seen me for quite some time. Hope you guys still recognise me.
End...
Hanged @
12:49 AM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
'Kiasu' VS 'Kiasee'...
We Singaporeans, apart from being shameless on public transport and rude to waiters, are best known for being kiasu (afraid to lose) and kiasee (afraid to die). For decades, these 2 terms have been tagged to everyone on the island, young and old. However, has anyone thought about which of these mentalities are we more inclined to?
Something happened a few days ago that shed some light to that question. I was at a 24-hours fastfood restaurant near my house, having supper with Erick as we were going to discuss business matters after the meal. It was past midnight but the place was still quite crowded.
Erick and I were eating when the fire alarm went off. What should be the reaction when a fire alarm go off? We should evacuate the building, shouldn't we? But what happened? Everyone just sat there, looked around, and upon seeing nobody running, just continued eating. No one wants to run because it would make them look stupid to be the only one running. They'll lose face if they ran.
Fortunately, the fire alarm died after about 2 minutes. Erick was lamenting that Singaporeans have no sense of urgency. If that alarm was caused by some terrorist attack, everyone would just die there and then. Well, he's right, but who are we to say these things when we are also sitting there, eating away?
From the above incident, I think I can conclude that Singaporeans are more kiasu than kiasee. We (including me) would rather not run and risk dying than run and look like a fool if it's a false alarm. Either that, or we just don't give a fuck. No wonder the comic character Mr Kiasu was so much more popular than his cousin Kiasee in the 90s.
End...
Hanged @
3:30 PM
I'm An Atheist...
I'm an atheist. I, personally, have no religion that I believe in. I believe in ghosts and a Big Guy up there, but I don't know and don't care what That Guy can do or will be able to do.
I'm not the kinda guy who likes waiting. I don't like to wait for things to happen. If something in my life that should be happening is not happening, I'll strive for it to happen. The time used to pray can be used more wisely.
Someone once told me that religion is something for a person to fall back on when things go bad in life. I take it upon myself to right my wrongs and not 'fall back' on prayers and things like that. Don't expect others to clean up your mess.
I think religion restricts potential. It makes people lead lives a certain way that they cannot think out of the box. They will always be constrained by ideals and things they've only heard but not seen before.
I'm practical. I believe only when I see.
End...
Hanged @
3:24 PM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
I Lost Weight...?
A colleague of mine commented that I lost weight significantly. I'm not sure if it's true as I don't really see a significant difference and I don't own a scale, but it's something nice to hear. My jeans do seem to be more loose-fitting though. Maybe she's right? Who knows?
End...
Hanged @
1:42 AM
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
You Do The Math...
Q.
Reeve has no money. Money is Reeve's happiness.
Deduce Reeve's mood with the statements above.
A.
Reeve has no money.
Reeve = 0 X money
Money is Reeve's happiness.
Money = Happines.
Thus,
Reeve
= 0 X Happiness
= Unhappiness
Reeve is Unhappy.
Did you get the answer too?
End...
Hanged @
10:38 PM
