Stifled...

Friday, July 04, 2008

Worried...

I was packing stuff in the company this morning when something dawned on me.

The economy is bad. What if I can't find a good job that allows me to support my family. I'm studying something media related, and the only media in Singapore is Mediacorp. If I don't end up there, I don't end up anywhere. What if I end up being a storeman all my life? I cannot allow that.

I called a few people today to tell them about how I feel. I feel a great urge to do something. Start something. I'm not all talk. I'm really thinking. I'm earning peanuts now as a storeman. Why would an undergraduate work as a storeman? As least I'm earning something, unlike some of the people around me. And working something as fucked-up as this made me realise that I cannot stay like that. It made me realise that I have to do something. I have the potential to do something.

I have so many ideas and so many things I want to do. And, no, I'm not going to take a step at a time and do things slowly. I wanna venture into different things and keep myself busy, to feel alive.

It's like Leong said, I need to learn the know-hows when I still can and I need to hang around like-minded people. I'm not going to live my life like a dream anymore. Be it starting a business or becoming a DJ, I need to put my foot down and really do something now.

End...

Hanged @ 7:01 PM